My uncle who lives in someone else's garage asked me directions to my brothers room so he could sleep in his bed. I have him directions and said aloud "Sleep in your own bed you fucking poor piece of shit cunt." He didn't hear me apparently.
I actually went down stairs to the festivities, got a drink, thought to myself "What the fuck am I doing here" and went back upstairs to the safety of my computer - all in the matter of about 20 seconds.
Am I relaying every small faceted detail of my life as of most recently? Yes, I am. And that's because younger cousins don't understand the bliss of silence -- And as I was typing that sentence, the hoard of misled delinquents-to-be came up the stairs as if they had no sense of weight dispersion and balance and muttered to each other in an overly coherent manner "Why does he stay up there are the time? He's so boooring." to which I hastily replied: "MAYBE I STAY UP HERE ALL THE TIME BECAUSE I HATE ALL OF YOU". They halted in their steps, and finally proved that they could actually exercise 'silence' and proceeded back from whence they came.
Should I feel remorse? Have I scarred them for life? I'd like to think so. Fuck them. I like to imagine that I have the magical ability to tell whether a person will succeed in life - and all of them I see the seedy aura of conformism, ill-mannered lies and fallacies of which they base their opinions on opinionated fools. They will amount to no degree of what they would blindly believe to be 'success' - the want for 'fame' and' fortune' - where in a world plagued with mistrust and a ideology that conformism holds the answer for self achievement, that they will even manage to miss the falsest of desires.
It is in this world I see nothing of requirement. That the human condition comes not natural to me but rather, I have to learn it in a way that most people would have had become accustomed to purely from upbringing but more so, instinct. My reserves of which people would automatically engage for human interaction is filled not with this ability, but rather the inverse of it. There would be people who would consider my literal pleasure from being alone to be 'abnormal'. The state of science and that fake study of 'psychology' aims to create enclosures for 'states of minds' as if they don't contradict themselves in saying that the human mind is a complex thing, though, it can still be isolated and given tags in the ways we deem fit.
TL;DR:
I hate family get togethers. I hate my relatives. I hate the fact that to be human, you're supposed to 'want and desire' human contact when I really really really enjoy being alone.
11 comments:
1) It's just porn and hate with you, isn't it?
2) I object to the 'fake psychology bit'. My brother is a Ph.D Psychologist, who studied the way that the brain processes and memorises melodies. I think he'd be a bit pissed if he learned that he had been studying total bullshit for the last 7 years. Which kinda suggests that there's at least something to the discipline.
-Brendan
It's just illogical in my opinion, that something as complex as the mind - unique per person - is trying to be understood.
Should we not try - even if there is progress? We will never totally understand the mind or the brain, but total omniscience and simple understanding are two different things. We may not be able to predict people, but we can certainly turn nutjobs into functioning members of society - something that we could definitely not do if psychology was 'fake'.
QUOC will I be successful?
YES. YES YOU WILL BE. You're going to get pissed in your 30's though because you can't balance your success with your relationship. By 40 you should be content with what you have but you'll always have inner desire to accomplish the goal you set for yourself when you're 22.
*And by 'successful', you're going to be not a millionaire, but pretty close. High 6 figure salary.
WeeeeOOooeoeWeooe.
OH YES BRENDAN, YOU REMINDED ME OF THE SECOND REASON I HATE PSYCHOLOGY:
They force upon society a 'norm' for state of mind, as if, in being slightly different, you're immediately tagged under a 'disease' or a 'illness'. The fact is that no singular case of a 'mental disturbance' can be related to someone else's because everyone's mind is unique. I'd belive it to be the 'genre labelling' equivalent we see in today's music industry.
Its, uh, good that I reminded you of mindless, belligerent conformity. But you're still wrong.
Psychologists generally don't bother if something is 'slightly different'. They do get a tad concerned when the hallucinatory voices in your head tell you to kill people.
And it really IS like genre-labelling in todays music industry: vague and self-defeating, but still a rather helpful way of sorting different varieties of disease/song into categories that exhibit similarities, and can thus be diagnosed correctly and treated/listened to by a person into that sort of thing.
-Brendan
P.S. QUOC will I be successful?
i wanna join the party
WILL I?
BRENDAN: FINAL WORD, I HATE THEM BECAUSE I WOULD NOT LIKE TO BE ADMINISTERED INTO A MENTAL INSTITUTION.
AND YES, THAT WITTY MOUTH OF YOURS WILL GET YOU PLACES. BUT BE WARNED, AS MANY PEOPLE THAT YOU MAKE AMUSED BY YOUR GRAMMATICAL PUNS, YOU WILL MAKE JUST AS MANY ENEMIES WHICH WILL TRY TO HINDER YOUR WEALTH GATHERING TECHNIQUE.
ROBERT: I THINK YOU MESSED IT UP WITH THE ENTIRE 22 UNITS THING. YOU MIGHT BE 'CONTENT' ON THE INSIDE, BUT I WOULD PERCEIVE YOU TO BE NOT SUCCESSFUL IN TERMS OF MONEY AND WEALTH - THOUGH, DESPITE YOU TAKING 26 UNITS, YOU MAY END UP HAVING A LOT OF TIME ON YOUR HANDS WHICH YOU WILL USE TO ENTHRAL YOUR WOMAN - THOUGH, SHE WOULD BE QUITE IRKSOME ABOUT YOU TAKING 34 UNITS.
Well that clears that up then!
LOL...I JUST TAKE MORE AND MORE DONT I
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